this is what i was referring to back then!!!!!

Love

What is it about Sundays which always make me feel restless like a caged bird, like a river obstructed I want to brake free, I need to flow I use all my strength in doing so but still I held something back may be I'm scared may be I'm not sure that the path I will take will be the right one or more like, Will I like it?? The distructions I will ensue, the bonds broken irrevocably, misgivings, curses, unhappiness; is it all worth to do so. Will it lead me to the happiness everyone is always talking about but then again what is happiness. Will I be happy with the things I want if I get them I don't think so if I get what I want I will have another set of things which I don't want or which i want instead n that is going to make me restless again. So is it sunday Or is it some melancholy in me which don't leave me in peace but why the rest of the week is as uneventful as weak cold tea. Iguess its Me.......

I'm the villain!!!!

how do u like it when u have to be a complete bitch. U have to state the facts to the people to tell them fessup when they are definetly not doing n bang u r the villain in their lives. Just because u make them face the mirror. U dont want the dirty work or say the things u say but no one else is ready   To do it so u square ur sholder n lay it open for them like here take it whether u like it or not.
N what u get in return a few hometruth about urself which u urself want to face. U r pleased with ur self that u did the right thing n sad cuz in return u get it as good as u diliver.
I do it often n get hirt in the process n man does it hurt
But in the end im still THE VILLAIN.....

Crowd n i

When u r standing in crowd n dont know anyone or for that matter u dont know even urslf what u do?
U do what everyone else is doing like living in their happy bubble or their misery. Smiling scowling standing erect like everything is perfect with their world.
U di the same things but think urself better then everyone else how is that
No one can be better than everyone else coz people are not programmed that way. Every person is a unique individual with his/her own personal set of good and bad. So stop being so superior or inferior u r born to live ur life not anyone else life they will live their own.
So when u stand in a crowd n u think that ur better than them then think why at all u r a part of that crowd. It will help u straighten ur act.

thirty n counting

when you are in your thirties people want you to act like thirty dress like thirty n behave like thirty. But i dont know how to do that cuz i have never been in thirties before but i have been in twenties so i know how to do twenties..
I feel like a lost kid.
But seriously i dont feel the numbers i just grown physically i dont feel that changing score board should change how i act behave or live> Does It????

You wont find any visuals here as i'm so poor at visualizing. I think with words, smell, textures not by pictures, far from it. So u wont find this very interesting if you are looking for pretty pictures.
What one supposed to do when spending precious years of life chasing a mirage; one finds that there is nothing to chase its just a mirage. What you do then Be bitter Mop cry or move on or keep on  chasing pavements. What one does when life is either too much or nothing like a limbo a continuous melancholy.
For me the best way is to cop with it is to take life in small doses to live in the moment never think beyond the moment if you think you will feel pressurized it will become too overwhelming to endure. Benevolence start from home be kind to yourself You did what u have to. There is nothing wrong with you. So smile don't let others see you down. N you are not alone in this world is quite a lonely place with all its population......

Moon!!!!

taken this pic n love it u can see the uneven surface of moon!!!!!